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| 07:58pm 26/11/2004 |
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i'm sick of this livejournal.
if i'm gonna forget him
i don't want the memories of him
staring me in the face everyday
so as if this new one will make it any better
here it is
__c0lorblind |
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| 12:31pm 22/09/2004 |
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mood:  ecstatic music: penny and me - hanson
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oy oy oy ... look who's finally ungrounded ... yes yes i know you all missed me so dearly but it's all going to be okay because the wonderful awesomely one and only stacey nicole has returned. shit ... i don't even have much to say except i got to see my also wonderfully awesomely jessica lorraine yesturday for the first time in forever and a half! ugh did i ever miss her ::sigh:: and tanite i get to go to my boyfriends ... haven't been there in like a month. advise. .. if you're gonna get shitfaced ... don't get alcohol poisoning when you're in the middle of nowhere and there's no hospitals around.
i'm out .. it's hot in herre...
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| 06:05pm 08/09/2004 |
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HI! My name is Stacey Nicole and I am fucking retarted and I got Grounded! ((This is actually Jessica but Im pissed at Stacey)) So this chick is really dumb... who steals their parents alochol and gets drunk in the woods?? Ugh Stacey does! Now shes grounded for Two weeks and this time its from the phone and computer... what the Hell am I gonna do for the Next two weeks w/o her? I'm trying to work out visiting hours... heh what a good Idea isnt it! She was allowed her one phone call yesterday and I gotta talk to her for 5 whole mins... yay :(... So Stacey wont be updating in a long time cuz shes grounded!
STACEY NICOLE... I love you and my life is gonna suck for the next 2 weeks! |
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| 07:23pm 04/09/2004 |
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mood:  pensive music: brand new
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i called you on the phone
and you said that somethings wrong
i can feel it in your voice
i can hear it in your tone
you said it's just not working out
i'll be crying when you go away
you said it wasn't me
you just said you couldn't see
getting back with me again
so i guess this is the end
you asked if we could just be friends
lets just be friends
i've been trying to think of a way to tell you this
we're almost out of school it's our last year
and i think we owe it to our selves to be free, go out with other people
i still wanna be friends
i'll be crying when you go away |
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| 08:16pm 03/09/2004 |
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a skaterboy broke my heart ... so i broke his board ...
why did that make me laugh so hard? |
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| rock the old old old school |
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| 07:45pm 03/09/2004 |
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how will you make it on your own? this world is awfly big and girl this time your all alone but it's time you started living it's time you let someone else do some giving. love is all around no need to waste it you can knock it dont why don't you take it you might just make it after all ::cat meows:: |
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| 07:25pm 03/09/2004 |
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mood:  bitchy music: i'll go - donnell jones
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you know that I want you baby
you know that I need you
and you know that I love you
just say it
am I giving enough
is this all that should be
when water gets rough
will you still swim with me
so afraid to come close
it may be too soon
it may be too much
for you to consume
and I wanna know if I can live inside your world
and I wanna know if I can be your girl
you know that I want you
you know that I need you
you know that I love you
my love just goes on and on and on
i give you all that you need
there's no better place you can be
and I know that in time
you will believe in me
so please hold out your hand
and let's exchange these golden bands
cause I want you in my life
i want to be your wife
baby you're so special
i want to give it all to you
loving you on and on
::big sigh:: wtf? a simple no would have been fine. he didn't have to make it look like he couldn't hang out just so he could smoke and hit jumps ... but whatever i guess i'm over it. he's been acting so dickheadish lately. maybe it's that time of month. i swear guys pms too.
stephen keeps calling. i can't seem to pick up the phone. i end up getting myself in a shit load of a trouble by just talking to him. not literal trouble more like trouble with my conscious. fuck that.
i hate school. already. i can't stand a few of my teachers. i swear they are on 24/7 bitch call. ugh i think i just need sleep. i already slept today. i need me time. time for me to crank up the la musica as loud as it can possibly go, get muhself a 1/2 gallon of icecream and just prance around the house in one of my brothers t-shirt and my underwear...
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| leave a note... |
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| 07:42pm 02/09/2004 |
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mood: creative music: only one - yellowcard
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how bout an update...on a count of my life is so intriguing..
so school; not so bad. kinda interesting. it keeps me on my toes. something new in my repetitive life. i told mrs. abrams *sweetest teacher in the world* that i had "personality conflicts" with my seminar teacher so she said she'd talk to my counselor and get me in her seminar class...just so happens e's in her class too. but even if he wasn't i'd still want her fer seminar cause she fucking rocks.
eric - mmmm i love seeing him in school again. i missed that when i had my stalker days. freshmen ::rolls eyes:: what the fuck was i thinking? ha but it made him fall for me ... i'm so good at that kinda shit.
i haven't been able to sleep lately. i think he keeps me up at night. in psychology today, frenkel was talking about how our behavior changes and what not in certain situations and he asked some chick behind me about her first date with her b/f of a year now. she said she was all nervous and had butterflies and was all excited and now she doesn't get like that because she's comfortable around him. i don't find that true. i'm comfortable around eric but i still get the same butterflies and giddy feelings as i did the first time. my mom says the same thing about my dad "when he pulls in the driveway from work i still get the same butterflies as i did 16 years ago" hehe loves makes people silly.
i should go do my psych homework. i figure it's a good class to take with all these "psycho's" in my family. maybe i'll have a conclusion as to why they act so freaky.
mucho love...o
<3
ps. we should start school after labor day...this kinda blows
pps. i l<3ve eric alan vautherot with all my faucking heart |
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| another day, another disappointment |
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| 11:37am 01/09/2004 |
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mood:  apathetic music: yo te voy amar - nsync
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broken this fragile thing now
& i can't, i can't pick up the pieces
& i've thrown my words all around
but i can't, i can't give you a reason
i feel so broken up
& i give up
i just want to tell you so you know
here i go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
you are my only, my only one
made my mistakes, let you down
& i can't, i can't hold on for too long
ran my whole life in the ground
& i can't, i can't get up when you're gone
& something's breaking up
i feel like giving up
i won't walk out until you know
here I go so dishonestly
leave a note for you my only one
& i know you can see right through me
so let me go and you will find someone |
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| back to school back to school to prove to dad that i'm not a fool i got my lunch packed up... |
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| 07:20am 01/09/2004 |
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mood:  drained music: forgive me love - alanis morrisette
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yay fer school . . . yay fer me! mmm school was erite i guess. not the greatest thang ever but i missed soooo many people! like my brookelynn nicole and sonny and mr. rion rogin! hehe ... i'm so fucking bored now though. i need a car...and a lisence...and a job. i think that's what i'll do this week. fill out applications. dorkus i almost spelled fill - phil...mmm i think i'm out of here. mom's makin meatloaf :\\\ i actually sorta kinda like that shit. i hate GH it takes away from my precious talking time with jessica lorraine...biatch.
<3
ps. if any of ya'll need a job too we should apply together...i have no skills!
pps. i <3 eric |
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| 01:04am 01/09/2004 |
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mood:  anxious music: mom talking on the phone
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school starts in one hour and 35 minutes. ... yay? :\\\ oh well. mmm lets see lets see. yesturday went shopping with Eric and Alec and Jan. i helped them look all spiffy ... wow i haven't used spiffy since like 7th grade. whoa devin ... my little itty bitty brother devin is in 8th grade. that's only the most kick ass year ever! but anyway yesturday josh came over to e's and me and alec watched them play some guitar...that boys good! ha but my lifes wicked boring so maybe i should just ... go brush my teeth. yeah brushing my teeth sounds like a plan ..
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| 07:54am 25/08/2004 |
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mood:  crazy music: first straw - 311
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The hand of my clock strikes two
In times when I got the best of you
We made promises we couldn't keep
And every night we couldn't sleep.
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life
Where I, did something right.
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time
You pick me apart
While I search for witty things to say
In my defense "You'll never amount to anything anyway"
Don't press your luck
And think that I'm impressed with your one night stands
and your contagious kiss
I'm trying to get this right
cause I'm ridiculas like that
I'll keep this as a constant reminder
Of the nights I spent holding onto him
And rest assured I'm moving on I miss you less,
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| if i'm not back in 30 seconds get the hell out of here! |
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| 07:17pm 24/08/2004 |
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mood: scared shitless music: jessica trying to steal my boyfriend - i'ma just call matt!
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so we went to ware road today. omfg. i honestly think i was more scared then when the go'damn bear chased us. so we got there and the road was narrowing and there was a fucking huge truck smack dab in the middle of the fucking road. so we get out and go to the right of the circle thangy...but...we got out of the car and the flashlight would not work ... it was flashing and doing all sorts of crazy shit. but when we moved further away from the circle and it worked. so we started heading down this path. it was all dark and scary and then there were some creepy plank things and some were missing and we finally got to the feild thing but chelsea said this was the wrong one so we had to go back...freaky shit. so we get to the real thing and pass that circle thing again. yeah the flashlight went off ((again)). so then we got the field and you can hear all this clunking and see shit out of the corner of your eyes and at the enterance to the woods there's the old plantation where the slaves lived. so we walked in the woods and most of us chickened out so we made the guys walk us back to the truck but then jess and i decided to go with ryan and ed and phil back in the woods well anyways to make a long story shorter, we got in the woods and you could feel shit down your neck and you can see people ((ghosts)) walking. and ed, this real big dude's like omg we have got to get the fuck out of here. so we start booking it to the field and we're like we have to play a trick on the other chicks. so we had this plan and ryan ran up and scared the shit out of them then made it sound like he couldn't find us and blahdy blahdy and then he "found" ed finally and told the girls to drive! so then phil and jess and i were stuck there in the circle by ourselves and i guess ed told lyndsay and chels and caitlyn that jessica just started running and they couldn't find her and phil said if he wasn't back in 30 seconds to get the hell out of there so then they drove off and you could still sort of see them down the road and this other jeep was coming. well turns out these two guys went out there almost every night. they told us that where we were, the pulturghist guy with the cickle always is there and he paused and told us to look over by his jeep. omf. swear on my fucking life there was a guy ((not a real person a ghost er whatever)) now i'm not one to believe in this sorta shit but it was definatly there. and then he's like and that circle there, he's like there's always one ghost that stands there and we're all like that's why our flashlight won't work there! so he went out in the field and came back he's like you do realize you were back there with the guy with cickle and you pissed him off and now he's in the middle of the field. we got out of there so fast. one of the stories was that there's a guy with a lantern and if the lantern is red he's pissed but if it's white er blue he's not gonna hurt anyone. well if a train comes you're fucking screwed because the only way out is ware road. and the train blocks the road. so you definatly don't want a train. and there's the crosses were they were crusifying ppl and the board where they hung the slaves and they guys told us bout the dude with the cickle cutting their friend and then waking him in his sleep and all this shit... and the train wreck that killed 8 people. this sounds so fucking retarded but i swear on leah's grave i'm serious. ... whew that's a mouthful. i better get jess of the phone with eric before i looooose him!!!
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ps... i apologized to matt today
pps...nate poured his heart out to me. wtf? phil's right maybe we should just run him over.
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| 05:04pm 15/08/2004 |
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mood:  crappy music: talking to jessica lorraine quintana
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I don't have to tell you
What this is all about
'Cause baby half the fun
Is in us figuring it all out
So why you gotta ask me
What I'm doing now
'Cause I don't like to question
What I still haven't found
So don't turn off the lights
I don't wanna be
In the dark tonight
'Cause I can't read your mind
I need to know if
What I'm doing is right
So Don't turn off the lights
So tell me how
We're gonna get there
It's hard to even try
But if we move together
We'll end up on the same side
So don't turn off the lights
I don't wanna be
In the dark tonight
'Cause I can't read your mind
I need to know if
What I'm doing is right
So Don't turn off the lights
If you could know
What I'm feeling
Would you run and
Where would you go
If you want to know
What I'm thinking
Then just turn on the lights
And you'll know
So don't turn off the lights
I don't wanna be
In the dark tonight
'Cause I can't read your mind
I need to know if
What I'm doing is right
So Don't turn off the lights
So don't turn off the lights
I don't wanna be
In the dark tonight
'Cause I can't read your mind
I need to know if
What I'm doing is right
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| 03:25pm 12/08/2004 |
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mood:  content music: ms. pacman music
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1. they call me: stacey
2. sex: female
3. my first breath of air: 10/17/88
4. status: taken
5. occupation: school
6. best friends: jessica and lyndsay
7. most memorable memory: summer going into 9th grade
8. worst: november 12th 2001 - leah died
9. first word uttered: beer
10. first best friend ever: my invisable friend susie
love:
11. love is: undescribable
12. first love: *makes discusted face* bryant
13. love or lust: love
14. best love song: yo te voy a amar ((this i promise you))
15. when love hurts, you: lock myself in my room
16. true or false: all you need is love: true most of the time
17. is there a such thing as love at first sight?: most definetly
18. turn ons: eyes
19. do your parent's opinion on your gf/bf matter to you?: nah
20. what kind of hair style: on guys? long so i can run muh hands through it
21. where do you go to meet new people: school ;)
picky picky:
23. dog or cat: neither
24. short or long hair: long
25. sunshine or rain: rain
26. moon or sun: moon
27. hugs or kisses: kisses
28. one best friend or ten acquaintances: one best friend
29. summer or winter: winter
30. written letters or emails: written letters
31. playstation or nintendo: nintendo
32. car or motorcycle: car__mustang
33. house party or club: house
34. sing or dance: sing
lately:
35. how are you today?: okay
36. what pants are you wearing right now?: my basketball shorts
37. what shirt are you wearing right now?: st.patty's day bball tourny shirt
38. what does your hair look like at the moment?: it's up in a messy bun
39. what song are you listening to right now?: max, maddie, taylor, josh and sammie making a shit load of noise
40. what is the weather like right now?: cold and crappy ...i love it
41. who was the last person you talked to on the phone: my mom
42. last dream you can remember: last night. .. i cheated on eric with chad michael murray and hung out with hillary burton from one tree hill...i'm a dork
43. who are you talking to right now?: the baby
44. what time is it?: 3:33pm
more about you:
45. what are the last four digits of your phone number?: 7506
46. if you were a crayon, what color would you be?: black
47. have you ever almost died?: numerous times
48. what's the next cd you are going to buy?: probably maroon5
49. what's the best advice ever given to you?: be yourself and don't let anyone tell you how to live your life
50. have you ever won any special award?: yea
51. what's the stupidest thing you have ever done?: to many
52. how many kids do you want to have? names? anywhere from 2 to 4 uh names ... emma, miller, brendan and keagan
53. shampoo?: herble essences
54. what are you most scared of?: the dark... and people in the dark
55. how many tvs do you have in your house?: 8
56. do you have your own tv?: ya
57. have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone?: lots
58. what do you dream about?: depends on what's been on my mind lately
59. who do you tell your dreams to?: who ever will listen
60. who's the loudest friend you have?: christina carleton
61. who's the quietest friend you have?: ashley chamberlain
62. is cheerleading a sport?: i guess so_it looks kinda hard
63. how many licks does is take to get to the center of a tootsie pop?: i just ate one ... it takes to long and i can't count that high |
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| 11:33pm 11/08/2004 |
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mood: drained music: nhl '98 on playstation
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I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am
Taffy stuck, tongue tied
Stuttered shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am...fine
I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in
Pull me out from inside
I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding
I am
colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am...fine
I am.... fine
I am fine |
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| so how bout you smoke my sausage? |
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| 08:07pm 06/08/2004 |
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mood: chipper music: dave matthews
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just got home from eric's. i don't recomend hellboy. it's kinda retarted. my grama was being a freak today. i hate coming home to her freakish messages. they're all the damn same. she's so weird! hmmm tarik's bday is taday. his party's tomorrow. i hope E comes. i don't like other little kids. tarik's badass but other kids piss me off. i'm so bored and alone and tired. my house is pitch black. i'm in the basement ... no one's home. i'm so pethetic ... i'm just gonna peace out of here. |
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